In March 2019 I thought writing a blog would help me process my emotional journey to have a second baby. I ended up writing drafts of raw posts that I couldn’t bring myself to publish. I struggled to capture the heartbreak of my miscarriage in October 2018. And I couldn’t articulate the rollercoaster of anxiety, hope, and heartbreak of failed IUIs or fading pink pregnancy lines on a home test. And right when I gave up on the idea of a sibling for my then 3-year old, the hopeful two pink lines. I gave birth to my little Rainbow the evening of March 11, 2020, wearing a mask during labor…